"Ferdinand lured by Ariel " painter John Millais
Bumped into this painting at Copyright artbook store in Gent, a place where i usually go when i want to discover art , as there is more than u will ever find in musea or galleries :-)  It's the only place where one can hear a Sonic Youth song followed by Chopin , isssss fucking cool !  But about the painting : i believe there is more to this than you will ever read in any newspaper about reality . This is the real world . Believe it or not.

" To find the Devine , one sometimes has to go trough the wallpaper ..."

What attracts me in Ingmar Bergman is hypersensitivity, darkness and his sense of humor and the childlike imagination he never lost as an adult . If i were a woman, this would be the man for me to marry , even i know this marriage would be hell ...it just be worthed in the end.

Follow me, reader! Who ever told you there is no such thing in the world as real, true, everlasting love? May the liar have his despicable tongue cut out! Follow me, my reader, and only me, and I'll show you that kind of love!

http://youtu.be/Bv7IcjmxjGo

When a song haunts you like a ghost ...it takes shape in a person's eyes , you could watch the tones dance around in it , like endless ripples growing wider . Tears forming circles and crystals , not falling ... spiralling in love, rejoicing life force's comfort .

the sound of red butterflies by your window
seven kisses blown by the wind
a click of the hand
let love in
...

Open Your Heart ( by the Human League) :

And when it hurts you
know they love to
tell you
How they warned you
They say "Don't be
surprised at
someone's lies"
They think they taunt you
But if you can stand the test
You know your worst
is better than their
best
And so you stand here
with the years ahead
Potentially calling
With open heart or
with a spirit dead
You walk on
Chorus :
Lies the reason
Faith or treason

Playing a part
End concealing
Try revealing
Open your heart
Dare to feel
Take the chance
Make the deal
Being an island
Shying from trying
Seems the easy way
Such an easy way
But there's no future
without tears

A new House , a new Life :

"The floor of my bedroom is full of needles ....not that i'm shooting up stuff, it's an atelier of a former fashion designer . Every morning i'm greeted with the icy indifference of a perfect shaped model doll , in a way it's the most comforting feeling in the world , i'm expecting Rainer Werner Fassbinder to jump out of the closet any moment . "

a song to make love to http://youtu.be/aaAyZh9zg1c .  Soon ... :-)

Ah yes and to continue the story i met this girl again one night in Levist Valjas bar in Tallinn (last week) You know she thought i was a hallucination . But ... life is sometimes .